Searching - by Brigid
Not more than a feeling. Just the knowledge to be just right where you‘re meant to be. To be connected
with everything. Truly everything You can perceive. Everything within yourself and everything and
everyone surrounding you.
No separation, no estrangement. Pure belonging. Union with all that is.
You‘re asking yourself, how to know that this is true. How do you know that this is really where you‘re
meant to be? How can you even know yourself well enough to know where you‘re meant to be. Can you
even know yourself?
Is there a self? Are you there? Can you feel yourself?
Am I confusing you with my questions? Just tell me yes so I can believe it and I will be quiet.
Ok. I believe you. You‘re right. If you can feel it, it‘s true.
Maybe it will be wrong. But not now. Now you‘re perfectly right, that this is home.
Home, what does that even mean?
It‘s nothing stagnant or fixed in one place. It‘s surrounding you and fills you up. You are where you‘re
obviously meant to be. Without doubts or questions.
You don‘t have to ask for space for yourself, because the space just is there for you wherever you need it.
You don‘t have to stand up for yourself, because you are standing already.
No gravity is pushing you down.
Space to laugh and to cry out loud. No shame, no suppressed feelings, no second thoughts, no lies, no
hate, and no fear. Just you. You and everything else.
Sounds great! How can I get there? Where is this place?
Within you, and myself? Within everybody?
I don‘t know how to get there. Can I follow you? I see, I have to find my way and I have to go by myself.
It‘s a lonely journey, but when you arrive at your destination, your own company will be enough, you
There you are at home.
Nice! See you there then!
Saying goodbye to the RV
A week ago I moved back into the room in the house. During the summer I had the pleasure to stay in a RV that was renovated last year. It has been an amazing time but as the leaves started falling and the temperature with them it felt like the right time to move back into the warmth. With the tiny-house movement and all the trendy and creative vans I, like everyone else, also felt like trying something like that out and this opportunity was just perfect. The RV really felt like my home and how it was placed in the garden surrounded by trees and blueberries made it feel extra much as a whole space. I will have so many memories to look back at from this summer and project and the time in my tiny house will surely be some of the precious ones. But of course I also learn some other sides of tiny living as you always do when you are trying things out. For example there was just enough space for my yoga-mat on the floor but if I wanted to actually practice it the closet and old kitchen were very much in the way. And I also noticed how practical it is to be close to the bathroom when moving back to the room, especially when it’s raining. But although I notice some less good sides I think I would really like to live small in the future, and maybe even build my own tiny house.
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.